I have come to realize that I really don’t incorporate myself into my own blog. Which I feel is a major mistake. I want all of my readers to get to know more about me. The real me. So here are some details about me that you may not know.
I am a 19 year old girl going through a lot of changes. I have always been sheltered as a kid/teenager. I was never the one to have 10 best friends at the same time. I was the one who was friendly to everyone, but had one best friend. I wasn’t the girl who was boy crazy, and would chase a guy around, making my life miserable, knowing full well that he had no interest in me. I was the one who was focused on school. I wasn’t the one to go out and hang with my friends at the mall or parties. I was the one who would much rather stay at home reading a book, watching black and white films, or just be with my family.
People would say that I was very avoident social as well as an introvert, but I say that I was always more family oriented as well as focused on my goals. My mom having me at a really young age , showed me where my focus in life should rally be. Being the way that I was had a lot of pros as well as a lot of cons. Pros being that I never really had a lot of drama in my life, and I had really good grades as well as a strong relationship with my family. As opposed to some people I knew who really hated their family. I’m not talking “oh my parents wont let me do anything..I hate them so much.” I’m talking about people who would actually tell their parents that they should just go kill themselves, because they didn’t want them around. I grew up with a lot of respect for everyone in my family, and therefore was very family oriented.
Anyways…kind of getting off topic here….The people who I was really close to, were dependable and all around good friends. The cons, however, of being how I was were that I now have no social skills. I don’t know how to act around guys that like me ( I always give off the friend vibe, or the I’m not interested vibe that I can’t help but give off) I have no life experience! None, Zip, Ziltch. I’m going to be 20 years old in Sepetember…That is 6 months away. One thing I want to do is make a major change in my life. I’m not talking about going balls out crazy with partying it up, and making destructive choices. I’m talking about getting out there. Meet new people, be more social, become more independent, find myself. I basically have to grow up.
So I have made a vow to find myself. Think Eat Pray Love without all the traveling, divorce, and hot spanish guy. I want my 20’s to be a time that I look back on with fondness. Being in my teens has been pretty much uneventful. This is something that I really want to do. I want to be more social, I want to learn how to not give off the vibe that I am a bitch who has no interest in talking to you. (I have been said to give off that vibe as well -.-) I want to make long-lasting connections with people who will change my life for the better. I know along the road I will meet some people who will probably be not to good friends, but that is part of growing up. I believe that you learn a lesson from every person that you meet. Wether that person is good or bad, you always learn something. That is what I need to do….Learn!
I also vow to make myself more personally present in my blog. I think it would be great for all of you to follow me through my journey, and get to know all of me. The present me, the changing me, and the future me.
To end this post here are some pictures of me, my adorable baby sister, and my grandfather. He came to visit the family this past week. We had an amazing time, and I can’t wait to see him again.
PS. Please excuse the way I look. We were walking all around downtown Disney, and it was really hot. I normally don’t like a wax doll. hahaha=p